Friday, February 20, 2009
Does karma really exist?
On a less vicious note about how I've screwed over so many guys, I began to think...did I just screw over myself in the long run? I fully believe in karma and I'm not necessarily sure that mine is going to be the best since I did manipulate and drive probably more than twelve men mad. Sheesh, I'm a swine. All I did was survive. Would what I've done in the past ruin my future? I know my reputation is probably shot. But, it pains me to think I won't ever find that one true love. It's not like I'm unconfident or anything. But, because I faked it. I've faked hellos, I've faked Facebook comments, hell- I've faked multiple relationships, even orgasms. Could faking it lead to never truly having it? I really hope that's not the case. I did what I did to survive and go another day with a few dollars in my pocket. I worked my ass off to get to college and get my dorm paid off. Should I really be punished for trying to further myself?
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I believe in karma and for a long time I felt the same way you do. As far as fucked up relationships go, I strongly believe that we go through all the hard shit and the horrid relationship problems we do so that wheen we meet that one person, we can truly appreciate them and what we have. I've been through I don't know how many guys( most of them being ass holes) to kbow that love will find you on its own terms. My grandmother married 4 guys till she found my grandfather now and they are like way in love. So don't fret babes. You're a sweet heart and when a guy comes along who deserves you, you'll know and so will he.
ReplyDeleteto start off answering your question, i truly believe karma exists cause there were times when i witnessed the downfall of two people who i knew personally that have did me wrong in the past whom i thought were real friends, but turned out to be fakes. but i also feel as though when it's just you alone struggling to make ends meet without any aid from relatives or friends, then you have to take desperate measures to gain independence and later on redeem yourself as a good person until your lifestyle has become a stable one
ReplyDeleteHi Mickey,
ReplyDeleteAs I've said before, your blog post are interesting, and I see you already know that your life is worth writing about. I think you have a lot to tell, and I hope you develop this further past just the personal narrative.
As a side note, you have a good heart, and I hope you don't let whatever happened in the past deter you from reaching for a better life in the future.
Good work so far,
Kristin
Mickey Love,
ReplyDeleteKarma what a great topic. Yes there is Karma but its rath is subjective to each person. You dont even know how many times I have wished bad karma on my ex for using me the way he did. Everything eventually does come around but in your case you got the shitty end of the stick before you fought for survival. You see thats the key word..SURVIVAL.. I can hardly believe that you would be punished for surviving through using men. I really want you to watch the movie EVITA..its a musical but its done well and i think you will like it and beable to relate to her in many ways. Sometimes life pushes us in situations that in the end if you can survive thicken you skin and make you a better person. What sucks is that during the struggle its hard to see that light. Mickey you are a wonderful person and give off so much life. Your honest and you truely listen and accept people. Bad karma is for people who use people for selfish ways of which are not by any means for survival but more personal pleasure. You see i think everything happens for a reason..you meet people in your life because in the big picture you were suppose to cross paths to gain something. I think among many other things, you gained perspective and thaat is powerful! Perspective allows you to see people and understand the way they are which is a quality so few have and thats why the world has so much hate. If you want true love mickey take from you hopeless romantic friend, you will find it! But you have to surrender yourself into believeing in true love. You have to risk it all to eventually gain more. True love is worth the battle because once you have it your unbreakable..I know you will have it because you DESERVE it...ps i love your blogs hahah ( that was my blog comment) *winks* love ya handsome
BABYLOVE!
ReplyDeleteOkay, First off, let me tell you that I completely understand with you on the whole "faking relationships." I'm that girl that does not get into them, because of the fact that I always feel like I'm just going to "settle." And I refuse to do that, even though I have. I was with this great guy, he was sweet, took care of me(not that I needed that because I'm independent as all hell) and was really a good guy, but there was no chemistry there. I tried and tried and TRIED to make it work, but it wasn't. I was pretending I was happy, and I liked him, and tried convincing myself, and it just wasn't right. Basically what I'm trying to say is, don't feel bad. Yeah, everyone makes mistakes, but everyone learns from them. And as much as I have been thinking that love is a bunch of bullshit and only for movies, I know it's out there. Your lucky man is there. And that is one HELL of a man to deal with a studddd like you! loves you!
Karma does exist, but I think to a certain extent. If you do things to better yourself in a away that you have to and are obligated to, I think it makes a difference. To be fake to better yourself in the long run Isn't a huge problem. It is when you hurt people for no reason, or to ruin someone else's chances just for the hell of it that there is a problem. There are people I have seen through out my life that I think will definitely have bad karma coming around to them, and those who have done good will receive the good karma. Karma I believe can be good or bad. If you got hurt trying to help other people, I believe something good will happen to you in the future and vise versa. Karma is tricky, you never really know what is going to happen, and when something good all of a sudden happens you think to yourself, what has caused such greatness. But, if you look back in the past and see yourself helping others and being a good person, there's no reason why good things should not all of a sudden happen.
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